Tara - I'M VERY SORRY IT'S TAKEN SO LONG TO GET THIS DONE! I was going to email it to you first & then post to the blog...But I can't find your email....I know you've been waiting patiently for this, so I went ahead and posted.....Some of it's unpleasant, but considering what all happened, I expected as much.....
I asked Victoria to give me a little insight into her life & she immediately went to the day she was abducted…(I’m sorry) Perhaps because she knows that I don’t know what happened – and wanted me to know? what happened, who did it, etc…I got this: (which I’m a little “iffy” on my interpretations, because of a women’s involvement….?)
First, I saw A WOMEN (one who has no children (or they don’t live with her or see her) But my 1st feeling, is a women who can’t have children (or maybe…not sure??? She’s been pregnant & lost it or aborted it?) and very bitter, angry, and sadistically self satisfying– then a man…..I believe they’re a “couple”, but not married….and they have major problems in the relationship… And as with most- drug addiction / abuse surrounds them and their daily life….I’m thinking they don’t even have “real” jobs….and struggle with financial difficulties daily…The show very little affection toward one another, or event themselves & lack empathy re: another – 100% self satisfying & never look into the future, only in the here and now. lack of affection and achievement. Poverty. (entire lifetime – probably suffered abuse also their entire lifetime)
It seems as though what & even why this may have happened has much to do with simply being bored… I know that sounds absolutely horrifying, but it’s what I get…. Just “people” who use their time and even “skills” (ability to con – persuade another) for Inappropriate use & undesirable outcomes…. (For example, they’d probably have made an excellent car or insurance salesman….but no drive or determination to put what talent they did have to good use…) Does that make sense? Mainly because they really couldn’t even see a “future” for themselves therefore it was always about the short term gain and never considered the long term consequences. Always dishonest in everything done….a “moocher”….
I saw a place which looked like a mental facility….And didn’t know if maybe what “happened” was near or at (an old??) facility of this type OR if it’s telling me that those responsible were ever institutionalized for mental disorders – or if it’s just saying – One or both are mental? Whatever it means?? It’s being shown to me as if “this place” (Possibly where everything happened?) was full of mental confusion, loss, discord, hate, sorrow, war/quarrels, etc….not for Victoria, but for her murder(s)…. I’m sketchy on this…you may understand it better? And it seemed to be in the afternoon/ not yet dark……It seems as though the women’s “skills” were used to lure….and it was a “con”….lies…..which got Elizabeth to go with this women…..But, she did….and it seems, willingly? Did she know her?
I saw: a little girl which resembled to me – “Laura Ingels” off little house on the prairie….light brown/brownish/reddish hair….freckles across the nose – short to shoulder length hair – with it parted? Or clipped/pulled back – I see noses touching….I also see like her wrinkling her nose, and twitching it, like a bunny rabbit….Not sure if that’s something she did, or if she’s trying to just get me to say “rabbit”?
FIRST – I asked her to “show” me/tell me about HER in life….(this would probably be “her” view, not necessarily yours)
I got from her, she felt as though she was often fickle…sometimes a little reckless & didn’t always pay attention to the warnings of impending trouble. She would often over-indulge in something one minute & the next find it to complete a project. She liked it when things came easy & in fact, she loved effortless success. (who doesn’t?) J She also LOVED unexpected (good) surprises & she felt, often- that luck was on her side.
She didn’t like her “impulsiveness” too much; Knowing that all too often she’d take the wrong advise (because of her “self-dependant” attitude) and sometimes, would rush in her choices (I feel like she didn’t do a lot “slow”! J And she was either all for it….or nothing….and because of the “nothing” when it was something she needed to do that she didn’t want to…..or even because she didn’t always think things through (come on! She’s just a child….but very wise now….) Life is about learning from our mistakes…And if you believe in reincarnation, then if you’ve learned – you don’t have to repeat mistakes previously made in your next life! She’s got a handle on it all – She knows that she’d start a lot of things, but not finish…and that stability & concentrated thinking really are important! **she sounds like a typical child to me**
In addition, I think she’s showing me you…and then I get this overwhelming feeling of enormous despair – suicidal thoughts (as most parent’s I’m sure would have) But she doesn’t like this….I then see the word “Decree”…I don’t know if you were already divorced from her father or if it happened after….But again, I’m seeing this when asking about things she didn’t like?.....I see a pill bottle….which leads me to believe that either you sought help for depression….or abused medication to self medicate during the time….But she says you’re much better now AND THIS MAKES HER HAPPY -
I got the feeling she misses the most not being able to actually understand (& show) that as much as things may have seemed like they sucked sometimes - That she really can see now that she misses any chaos she may have or didn’t have & just not getting the chance to put to use all the good lessons she now knows…..Instead of showing disregard for another- she’d show appreciation, etc… Instead of sometimes feeling out of control – she’d like to have experienced Triumph over adversity, overcoming life's obstacles, be decisiveness and turning her ambition into reality, etc…. anything that we’d all wish we could “re-do” if given the chance….And very much an answer I’d expect…..In other words, she now can see what error’s she made, and misses that she can’t fix them- But she also knows that it’s not important anymore….I think she just wants you to know how much she’s learned – Making “mom proud”.