You know how much of a great, kind hearted person you really are and that is all that matters. You know that I have stayed out of "your blog" business and have supported you since day one. I know the truth behind why you blog about the things you blog about and I will always be grateful to you for this. I know, you know, and many, many other's know that you have very special "gifts" (yes, yes...I know...we all have them....) However, whatever the case, not everyone uses this ability, knows how, or believes.
YOU KNOW I am a very private person...and I am writing here, for the 1st time to you because I can see the toll this has taken on you in the past couple of months. I hear you cry alone in the bathroom....I see you sleep 3 hours a night, and run on coffee and energy drinks the remaining 21 hours, each day - trying to finish all the free readings you've promised and/or answer media questions, work on another missing person case, etc....etc....etc.....All the while some really hateful, yes- I'm gonna say it - fucked up people continue to bash and trash talk you on a daily basis. Holy rollers emailing you, and weird-o's stalking you. When is it going to be enough FOR YOU? I'm ok with my loss and if you are continuing this path FOR ME, please - stop. You are more important to me and the kids then continuing a blog, which is tearing you down, for my sake... If you are continuing it for YOU - then so be it.
BUT CONSIDER THIS.... YOU GIVE ALL YOUR TIME TO SO MANY WHO REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU, YOUR WELL BEING, OR EVEN KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE...AND ALMOST NO TIME TO THE ONES WHO ADORE AND LOVE YOU, UNCONDITIONALLY...YOUR FAMILY. I WOULD TELL YOU IN A HEART BEAT - KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK, IF I THOUGHT FOR ONE MINUTE THAT YOU WERE TRULY BEING APPRECIATED FOR THE REAL TIME AND EFFORT YOU PUT INTO THIS BLOG.
ALSO.....I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN SITTING HERE, READING ALL THE FREE READINGS, REQUEST, AND I ADMIT...I'VE EVEN SNOOPED INTO YOUR EMAIL - AND AM JUST DUMB-FOUNDED AT THE NUMBER OF FREE REQUEST YOU'VE COMPLETED AND STILL HAVE LEFT TO COMPLETE - EVEN I FELT OVERWHELMED!
HAVE YOU ASKED ANY OF THESE "FREEBIES" TO VOTE FOR YOU ON THE TWITTER SHORTY AWARDS?
Well, I know you have. And so far, I think ONE of them spent 5 minutes so far to vote! AFTER YOU SPENT AN ENTIRE DAY,AND EVEN LONGER ON SOME, TO DO A FREE READING FOR THEM, SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY ASKED YOU TO!
I know I can't "make" you do anything... You are you - And that's not a bad thing because you are a giving, selfless human - But it is a curse, when you allow it to consume you.
***********And one word about the little Kansas Baby**********All the media are indicating that my wives "insight" has now been proven "useless" due to NOTHING being found....Well, not sure what you think you know....But NO official search was ever done - Period - by the PD. And the searcher's only searched about 2 hours because of the bad, cold weather conditions. She didn't FAIL at anything. You can't fail at finding something if no one looks for it! Idiots - all of them who do nothing but talk out their ass and spread lies and rumors because they have nothing better to do -
(PS) I know you read all your comments...but I also know that the over 105,000 viewers of your blog don't....so, since you didn't log off, I took it upon myself to do a posting of this comment also - you can delete it when you see it, if you want...but I hope you wont.....AND TO EVERYONE WHO'S TALKIN SHIT....I'M NOT AS NICE AND FORGIVING AS MY WIFE - IT'S A DAMN GOOD THING YOU'RE ABLE TO HIDE BEHIND YOUR COMPUTER SCREEN - THERE'S A NAME FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU ALL - IT STARTS WITH A P AND ENDS WITH Y......
NOW, THERE'S SOMETHING FOR ALL YOU MEDIA HOUNDS TO PRINT!
(FYI- I nominated you for awards you truly deserve....#Humanitarian and then another in #IStayStrong) I guess we will see if anyone else will follow suit and show they really do appreciate what you've contributed in your effort to make the world a better place to vote, you have to do each one separately @shortyawards)
I love you-
Tu Esposo, Jaime